Larissa Dos Santos Lima is still hung up on her ex-husband Colt Johnson. The 90 Day Fiancé star went to Instagram to talk about how she still has feelings for him.

Brazillian born Larissa met Las Vegas native Colt and soon moved to America to be with him as documented on season 6 of 90 Day Fiancé. The went on to star in the spinoff 90 Day Fiancé: Happily Ever After? on season 4 of the show. It wasn’t happily ever after for this couple, as the constant fighting and bickering led to Larissa being arrested on domestic battery charges three times throughout their relationship. After the divorce, the two went off to date other people. Colt dated another Brazillian woman, Jess Caroline, just five months after the divorce was finalized. While Larissa dated Las Vegas native, Eric Nichols for eight months following her divorce. Following her split, Colt reached out to Larissa in an attempt to comfort her, but Larissa shared the screenshots of her and her ex-husband’s messages, vowing it will be the last time she will ever speak to him. The text messages showed Colt being very hostile toward Larissa, even calling her a “dumb broad” and accused her of trying to seduce him in order to get money from him.

Earlier this week, Larissa drew a lot of attention when she met up with 90 Day Fiancé: The Other Way star, Corey Rathgeber after it was rumored that he broke up with his girlfriend of four years, Evelin Villegas, allegedly due to trust issues. Both Evelin and Corey appeared on the very first and current season of 90 Day Fiancé: The Other Way where Corey made the decision to give up everything in the United States to go try and make a life with Evelin in her home country of Ecuador. After Larissa posted the photo of Corey and her out on a date (see below), Evelin went off on Larissa in a tear-filled rant, calling her a “whore,” and that Larissa “should be more respectful toward other women.” That’s when Larissa went to Instagram to defend herself and also where she admitted that she still thinks about her failed marriage. On October 4th (via InTouch), Larissa clapped back at Evelin, saying on the live video, “Stop to involve me with your man. I am single. I do whatever I want. If I want to date right now, I can go.”

Then Larissa revealed that she’s still in love with Colt, saying, “I have one thousand men that want [to] date me but I don’t want [to] because I love Colt. I love Coltee, and that’s it.” The message turned introspective, she says. “I cannot date anymore because I think too much about my marriage.” She then reveals the topic of conversation on her date with Corey, saying, “One of the topics that I say to Corey yesterday was about my marriage, that I feel so sad that when I remember Colt and everything.” She then went to her Instagram story the next day on October 5th, she to posted a sentimental message about her past. “Thinking about the past made me realize it is like walking into a home where you once lived.” Then concludes the message with, “I decide to walk out and close the door and never look back again.”

As complicated and messy as this situation is getting, fans wish there could be some cameras following all of the drama around so that they could get a true perspective on it. As Larissa has been called a “mastermind manipulator” by her ex-boyfriend recently, some 90 Day Fiancé fans are wondering if she’s trying to get back with Colt in order to gain something.

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Source: InTouch, Larissa Dos Santos Lima